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The Mechanism of Self-Judgment

Judgments can be illusionary/vicious.

Judge yourself as "miserable", "sick", "dying off", etc. Then believe in that. Then become that.

Faith is magical. It routes vital energy. So whatever's faith invested in, shapes life.

That's how it works, all those self-judgments. They make you become what's judged. Self-damage. Of co-o-ourse, it can also be "positive" like judging oneself good, wonderful, etc. Nonsense, partly. Partly 'cause there is a real part in it all, but there's also an impurity from the judgment. Judgments are partial. What matters is the relationship. And a judgment can easily misconnect a relationship by not perceiving what's really there.

And if you rely on others judging yourself, well sure enough, they'll judge you into oblivion. Also on prejudices of others or common prejudices. It's all fickle. In old times, it was considered a sin to rely on others for one's own life.

One's own life is one's own, nobody else can live it.

Judgments kill it off. A judgment is a very delicate thing, it's necessary only when something's been spoiled to a serious extent. But judgments themselves can damage and spoil when unfair or unrealistic. Why judge when you can perceive reality? See for yourself rather than follow a prejudice imposed?

Nobody will judge one but God, that is, what happens in life. And one can foresee that with insight and change/affect life with what one creates. One makes his own life.

And about "crying for a child's soul" like Glenn sung, well, why lose it?

It's always there, it's easily recoverable. "Adult soul" can become mistrusting and judgmental. And disappointed and worn out. A child's soul (always wondering) with all the insight of a life's experience is that "innocence and wisdom" Jung loved to quote from the Bible.

Same thing about judging others - that's very near to stigmatising, and it hurts others, and it can damage others, making them believe in a judgment. Judgments are superficial, haughty, and most of the time an illusion - anyone and anything can change, but the pinning down of a judgment can also persist in whoever's been judged, in a form of suppression. In short, you judge someone somehow, you tell him that, he believes in it, or worse, can't stand it and believes it negatively, and there you go - instant suppression and spoil. Stuck in "goodness" or "badness" or something else. Negative feedback: one judges himself something, believes in it, becomes it. Same thing with others, especially when you've got authority. Can very easily impose the negative feedback loop.

In short, judgments hurt.

The real psyche isn't very judgeable. It is. Its relationships and [de]formation and affection and the like can be perceived, "seen" with insight. Reflected upon. Change itself. But judgments are a dire measure. The soul dislikes judgments; it is merciful.

In Jungian psychology, perception is the opposite of judgment (but it's on the same axis): perception gets in touch with reality rather than quickly and hastily matching a known (and dry) pattern against it. Perception can be more "difficult" because it doesn't say much. It's silent, so there's little to say, one doesn't stand out and thinks he has to make some kind of judgment.

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The Role of Negativity & Black Sabbath

What many people don't get is that reflexion is negative. Black Sabbath was as negative as negative gets (with Ozzy thrown in the middle; Ozzy's shallow without the three negative guys - Tony, Geezer, Bill). Which is why they're so talented, bother! Who else would write about what madness or misery is really like, in the middle of positive hatred towards madness? Now that's real love. Who else would write "Sabbath Bloody Sabbath" or "Paranoid"?

There're people that're too positive. Being too positive is without reflecting what the world is like, without being reflecting, and that makes one easily abused and swindled. Easily manipulated. That teenage positivism, rushing into "good-doing". Without noticing how somebody might get hurt. How life can be broken. What cruelty really is like.

No negative reflexion, no noticing what the world is really like. So one can't really be positive without awareness. One can't build without being aware of what everything around is like.

One can't really be kind or creative without being reflective, merciful and loving without negativity.

Being too positive all the time will only drive one to an easily exploitable hatred/scorn. Towards anything that "doesn't conform" with ideals of "goodness". Which is what politicians exploit. Most people get that super-positivism gone in their twenties. Things happen that make one realise not everything in life is an uber-achievement and "strength". Life "crashes" one as it's said in Russia. If one's too pretentious. But of course there are people who turn everything in life into struggle. That kind of attitude makes one burn out pretty quickly, too... And it's a risky road which can lead to hypertension, stress, cardiovascular problems...

Black Sabbath's talent was in reflexion, reflecting what humans and their ailments and fears and whatnot really were like. And it takes reflexion to see what they were really singing about. Often states of affliction ("Disturbing the Priest"), madness ("Paranoid"), misery from misguidance and corruption in life ("Sabbath Bloody Sabbath").

The "positive hatred" is hating when someone's "not good enough" or for "not doing enough" or for "not participating". In short, that's when someone's so positive, he overflows and tries to draw everyone into his state. The European hatred towards madness has to do with this. Madness is, in essence, a state of reflexion of what has knocked one's mind out. "Playing out". It's often a consequence of mind rape, suppression of one's will. Madness is cured easily - by reflecting what somebody state's like. Someone else (and usually close) being a mirror (listen to Velvet Underground's "I'll Be Your Mirror"). But positive hatred locks madness away. And never solves it; it only breaks it up and leaves it latent in some cellar of [sub]conscience.

People can take everything backwards - they think artists like Black Sabbath somehow lure into trouble. It's the other way around: just like Dostoyevskyi in the 19th century described characters who couldn't live or be themselves, Black Sabbath described states of affliction that shouldn't be. They also help identify the states when somebody runs into them. Music and poetry give clues as to how everything is. And that's the first step to recovery: awareness. And, of course, you don't become a Dostoyevskyi character (wishfully anyway). Or run into a state described by Black Sabbath of one's conscious will. No; Black Sabbath dealt with fears - with wishes of what shouldn't be. And their role was important in making people realise that fears can be rationalised, portrayed, exposed, shown for what they are. That fears don't have to be feared and suppressed, they can be examined and reflected and seen as something separate from oneself; a reference; and then they won't be dangerous.

Now, something that there's in Tarot "Moon" card (symbol of reflexion) is that it's a very negative card. It's the card of a state of reflecting everything around, a kind of negative state that can be the beginning of awareness. Mirror. But not a source of energy by oneself. Sometimes in life one gets to a point where one can't seem to gather the energy or the awareness to go on. And being ever more active only turns out to thwart enthusiasm. This state might be when reflection has to begin. Not being a sun, not being active, not being of an energy that can achieve something, but observing how everything really is, observing life for notions that one might not even know yet.

Real awareness is really both, negative and positive. So in a human conscience there really has to be a combination of both - reflexion of what's going on around, and what everything around is like (Moon), and active, positive knowledge that can turn into creation anytime (Sun).
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Bit of Trivial Philosophy

Nietzche wrote "what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger". He forgot to mention - "while torturing in the process". That shows all of the Western pathology - torture by experience instead of learning through insight. Or even better, knowing that one already has enough that one shouldn't bother torturing himself too much with learning, e. g. worrying about being a fool. Which isn't much of an issue anyway as a fool is someone innocent... And knowledge or awareness does NOT assume automatic loss of innocence. As is the common misconception. Experience does not exclude innocence.
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How to Config A NIC under Linux

...or any Unix, also MacOS X, etc.

Here the IP address is with gateway/DNS server on

ifconfig eth0 netmask broadcast
ifconfig eth0 up [optional - activates the interface if it is off]
route add -net netmask - add the basic route
route add default gw - gateway

In etc/resolv.conf - the great mystery!

search localhost.localdomain [replace with the box's hostname, or it won't work]
nameserver someotherDNSserver
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Problems of Faith

Copy of a message to someone.

Like science. And Catholic church.

You see, science was prodded forward by the Catholic church during/past Renaissance. Renaissance of what? Turns out the Catholic church tried to "resurrect" the original European culture. You can read more about it at

Thing is, science is stupid. Scientific method only examines that which is visible, or otherwise detectable with tools, and treats it as non-existing until it is proven to be. But this means it's effectively blind and distances itself from everything until it's "proven". It ignores life. But science is worshipped. And its ways, too.

This is a pattern of spoil that then makes people suffer, as worship of science is already there in the culture, and it misshapes conscience. Science takes place of religion. "Religion" in Latin means simply "re-link". Re-link with nature, with the gods, with divinity, the world, etc. etc. There was a US teenager (Russian-born, BTW) who spent something like half an hour trying to "prove" that stuff he doesn't perceive immediately doesn't exist. "What he didn't see couldn't exist", literally. Combined with the "perception of reality=reality" nonsense, it all says "swindle me".
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